Not that I have regrets. I really don’t per se. There are moments I wonder though, what if I went left instead of right. What if I made a decision in my life that could of steered me a different way. Where would I be now if I did not choose what I did.
Lets take a defining moment of my life….The Illinois Armored Incident. I was working at Illinois Armored, as an Armed Driver. I hated the job with every fiber of my being. I also had a bad gambling problem. I would toss all my money away on a pipe dream, hoping I can make enough money to give the job up. Well the Riverboats aren’t built on winners, so I was facing getting my car repoed, and other sundry of financial woes. Being surrounded by money, I kinda went nuts. I won’t tell you how much I took, or the method of which I took it. I just took it, and spent every penny of it.
Eventually cause I was greedy, I got caught, convicted, had some lovely experiences in jail. Everytime I get a job, I go through some sort of tribunal, and I have to answer for my crimes. I had to beg for my job at times, because they find out after the hire me. I have to humble myself many times. I have more to prove, more to earn their trust then other people. I have lost alot of good jobs because of this. Is it the only crime I did, unfortunately no. It is the crime that most effects my career.
There are times I wonder where would I be if I didn’t do it. Would I still be stuck making 12 bucks and hour, risking my life, delivering money? Would I came to my senses went back to college? I don’t know.
What I do know is that because of it, I had to go back to Jiffy Lube, after working at Jiffy Lube, I decided to go back to college, and make something more out of my life.
My life is filled with bad decisions, but you know what if I didn’t make those decisions I don’t think I would have my degree, I wouldn’t be as close to my family, I wouldn’t have my great friends, or I wouldn’t have what little I do have.
Sure I could of had more if I made the right decisions, but who knows if those were right. It could of ended me up someplace worse.
