There is no normal life, just life
“There is no normal life, just life” – Val Kilmer as Doc Holiday from the movie Tombstone.
One of my favorite lines from a movie. I would love for once my life was normal though. To be married, a good job, kids….that isn’t my lot in life. My life has been anything but normal…jail…mental institute, college, every job known to man, love, hate, death, and pain. I seen it all. Any man who says he doesn’t have regrets is either a simpleton, or a fool. I have legions of them.
There are times I curse God, Destiny, or whatever power that has been guiding my life. I haved begged those same powers for release of these chains of whatever fate they have condemned me to. I have fought, and rattled these chains to the bursting point. The sad thing is at every greatest tragedy of my life, at the heart of every regret, there is no God to blame, fate had nothing to do with it. In the dark hours of the night as I lay in bed, or I look myself in the mirror I know who the enemy is, I know who, and what to blame for my failings.
That person is me.
January 12, 2012 at 10:12 am
The first step is figuring that out. Now the 2nd step is learning from it. It took me years to do this. I have started removing, or lessening, parts of my life that were getting me into trouble and even though I have some difficult health issues right now, I am happier for it. Yes, I miss my friends, but spending every weekend in a bar just wasn’t doing it for me anymore. If you need a shoulder, I’m here. If you just want to talk and aren’t interested in an opinion, just let me know. I will put my, um…er… A ball gag into my mouth and just listen.